Getting older sucks. I’ve known so many people in the recent past that have died that I’m almost getting numb to it. In my lifetime, I’ve known way too many people that have died too early.  I’m not even talking celebrities, I mean people I know and/or work with.

My career is changing as well. After nearly 25 years of driving for a living, I got a promotion at work to Routing Coordinator. It’s just a name for someone that takes trucks and makes sure they’re legal and maximized for delivery.   There are over a hundred delivery trucks per day from the distribution center. I get to work with maps and keep track of interesting statistics and data.

I’m ready for the next phase of my life. I’ve been trying to bring the good and love and light in my life but have thus far not been very successful feeling fulfilled. My mind is so used to thinking negatively, that the feeling of good is foreign to me.

It’s been my intention for years now to follow my passion to write. But I let life get to me so much that I’ve lead a pretty unfulfilled existence so far. But all of that has been changing. These days since my new job I’ve been feeling more spiritual and thankful for everything I have and have done.

It seems that sweet things taste a bit sweeter. And that special someone is more beautiful. And I can, finally see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. I want something different in my life and know I’m on the right track. Or at least hope really bad that I am.